Where are my people?
The past few weeks has brought about reflection of 'who my tribe is,'yet again... Over the past year, I have struggled with finding the answer to this question. Last year began with a group of people I was committed to and by the end of the year I was standing in the presence of a group of very different people. I asked God to show me who my tribe was. I wasn't prepared for the truth to be revealed in the way that it was. Now, a year later, I find myself asking the same questions. I am also reading a book and following along with Jo Saxton (yes my 3 o'clock tea break) and she is posing the same questions. Who is your tribe? Then, following up, how do you build a tribe? I believe there are probably a few layers to that answer. I have been leaning into the Father for the answers on these questions and this week seems to have some new shed light on the matter.
With the current state of the world, I think that there are many people who are asking the same questions. With lockdowns and isolation, it is much more difficult to ignore the lack of relationships, or the lack of depth within them. In the world we knew, it was easy to have conversations that would go just far enough, and yet not deep enough to really give away our truest of identities. What I am seeing right now is that with the new weight and new EVERYTHING, it is more difficult to hide the lack, and it is more difficult to hide the truth of brokenness.
We keep talking about the "new normal." The most reoccurring topic I have heard and also been a part of discussing is this emotional bankruptcy that seems to come out of nowhere and pull a knockout punch. I have seen many posts with red swollen eyes, with puffy faces and those tears just below the surface of the forced smiling faces. Our minds are in overload, our families are being stretched into unknown territory at paces faster than our brains seem to compute. There is a constant rebooting, not only of zoom meetings, but of our mindsets and our daily schedules.
I think that our tears may be the healing balm. I think speaking the truth and letting it out helps break the broken moments. I think that we find our battles shift when we let the tears flow and seek the Father and get real with what is going on.
Psalm 56:8-12 The Passion Translation (TPT)
You’ve kept track of all my wandering and my weeping.
You’ve stored my many tears in your bottle—not one will be lost.
For they are all recorded in your book of remembrance.[a]
The very moment I call to you for a father’s help
the tide of battle turns and my enemies flee.
This one thing I know: God is on my side!
I trust in the Lord. And I praise him!
I trust in the Word of God. And I praise him!
What harm could man do to me?
With God on my side I will not be afraid of what comes.
My heart overflows with praise to God and for his promises.
I will always trust in him.
So I’m thanking you with all my heart,
with gratitude for all you’ve done.
I will do everything I’ve promised you, Lord.
This week I was literally bankrupted. I broke and then I broke again. I think I cried myself out of tears. It was so many things and yet I had so many things that I was thankful for and grateful for. Such a strange place to be. I felt alone. I felt isolated and forgotten. I reached a place of crying out and within 28 hours, God not only responded, but he sent confirmation of Words He has given to me over the past few years, one by one. Most people probably had no idea what weight their words held, most had no idea that I was even in a place needing a lifeline. But God knew. God holds onto every tear we shed. God is greater than any of the forced newness that we are trying to power through. God also, in His greatness takes the time to look down and touch you directly, to say "I see you, I hear you, you are not alone." He sends people to your corner and says "jump back into the fight, it isn't over yet!"
Today I am going back to 1 Thessalonians. I am reminded of this passage and I am reminded to take the time to pray for my leaders and to have grace for my leaders. To have grace for those around me. To look to see how I might expand my tribe, even while in quarantine. We have a choice. We can run and hide away from the fight, or we can cry it out, give it back and jump back in.
I am praying for quiet spaces, even within the full houses, the over stimulated places, that you would find the wing of El Shaddai and rest underneath it for just a moment to catch your breath and let Him remind you of the identity He has sealed upon your chest.
It is okay to not be okay. It is not okay to stay there. Find someone to pray for this week, whether they ask for it or not. Ask God to show you who might need it most right now. (Look for the one who might be the "doer" the one who might seem to always "have it together." I am guessing that she probably doesn't right now...or maybe she does today, but she may need it for what tomorrow brings) And TELL them that you see them, tell them that you are praying for them. Tell them that they are not alone.
1 Thessalonians 5:12-18
Dear brothers and sisters, make sure that you show your deep appreciation for those who cherish you and diligently work as ministers among you. For they are your leaders who care for you, teach you, and stand before the Lord on your behalf. They value you with great love. Because of their service to you, let peace reign among yourselves. We appeal to you, dear brothers and sisters, to instruct those who are not in their place of battle. Be skilled at gently encouraging those who feel themselves inadequate. Be faithful to stand your ground. Help the weak to stand again. Be quick to demonstrate patience with everyone. Resist revenge, and make sure that no one pays back evil in place of evil but always pursue doing what is beautiful to one another and to all the unbelievers. Let joy be your continual feast. Make your life a prayer. And in the midst of everything be always giving thanks, for this is God’s perfect plan for you in Christ Jesus.
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I am a wife and a mom of two and a prayer warrior. I love Jesus and love wrestling with the Word of God and finding how my life fits into His story.