Let's Try This Again

If at first you don't succeed......  Several years ago I had a blog.  I was just beginning to find a strong voice, to get into a rhythm of sorts and it just disappeared.  *POOF* The company that I had paid 3 years in advance just disappeared, and so did my blog, along with the last several posts that I had not backed up.

I was ready to start flipping over tables, looking for all that was lost, when I heard a very still quiet voice whisper to let it go.  It was a new season, a time that I was going to have to learn how to step out from behind my written words and actually use my speaking voice.  As much as it pained me to agree, I let it go.  I stepped out (legs knocking the table leg as I began finding a voice) I began discussing, and even teaching, I began using my voice, and somehow more than survived it.  There were tears at times, nerves EVERY time, and yet, God has faithfully filled my mouth with words that completed sentences and thoughts, even more at times.  I have learned that He has fun training in me, teaching me that I am so very much more than I have given myself credit for over a lifetime of self doubt and judgement.

It seems that as the time past, I had given up on the idea of blogging, and out of the blue, within 3 days the idea came back to me through several people and avenues in almost overwhelming numbers.  I actually laughed out loud at the thought that after all of this time, I was seeing a door open back up to attempt this again.  This time I am not hiding behind my screen, I am openly ready to stand as me when and where I am called to.  This time I have confidence in ways I have never known before.  This time I have keys to the kingdom in hand.  

I am not sure where this journey is going to lead, but I am excited to see it through as long as it is supposed to last.